because i am worried that i will forget

He looked at me like he couldn't believe it. Like he had never seen me before. He stayed longer for me. He smiled at me, all weekend, every time I looked at him. Just at me; he looked so happy. And calm. It was the first thing I missed, that smile, that look, that feeling. There were other things later, there are other things now, but that smile, that was the beginning.